Wtff wrong with me??

Lol you do have sadomasochisitic tendencies, but it's nothing to fret about (unless it bothers you). A quick google search of '' will bring up countless pages of what you're talking about. Don't try and judge yourself by social norms, but judge yourself by what you feel is right. If you don't feel comfortable about your uality you'll end up doing what you think other people think is right and that leads to a very plain and unsatisfying ual life. Explore and know your boundaries.